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Today is my 1st day for a new semester (2nd year 2nd semester)
what a unlucky day for me
Unlucky things:
-1st lecture already told us this week start tutorial class(extra added in)
-then the lecturer need to see our works done on the last few semester (headache dunno all went where some back hometown)
-finished his lecture then the 2nd lecturer (at the same day) so exciting for it but also added in the tutorial class
-then we also cant reach to cinema more early
-so my friends and me need to watch the last movie time.... 9.45 pm (watch until almost 12 am,where got taxi?)

But lucky there still got taxi waiting for customers.

Today we watched a movie call PiRahNa~ so scary
talking a kind of fish that eat flash.
Say this movie scary .... but feel like not TOO scary
but still can use one word to describe it : 恶心！
* i watch until whole body shake(so violence for me) and feel like vomiting the things that i ate.
=.=

huiyo.... long time no see my blog le

Welcome back ~ riona-chan
Almost one or two months I didn't open or update my blog.
Just finish one of my assignments, feeling quite relax.
Now already is the year 2 semester 1 , mean I already study 1 year in the college.
Many things happened and many things pass too.
Got happy moment with friends ; got sad moment with friends...
haiz.... but nowadays I keep on hearing something that make me sad......
what should I do... ?
keep on pretend happy and 坚强... or just tell somebody... ?
内心很烦

到底我懂不懂？

我是个悲观的人，
什么事都会往坏的一面想，
我~ 和我暗恋的人告白了。
告诉他我喜欢他，
不过到最后我们还是朋友。
往往我的心情还是伤心的，
我告诉他，我很好，我不会伤心，
不过我的脑不让我控制，
我也好想我自己高兴一点，
但是到最后我一想到那一件事，
我就不由自主地伤心起来。
不过我可以肯定的是：喜欢一个人也可以是开心的，不管你是否被拒绝。
我真的十分感谢告诉我这句话的人。

feel so 烦

Inside my heart feel like got many things want to speak it out,
but how to tell ?

1) today morning i release that my lovely roro (hamster) disappear from the cage. I think maybe it already pack bags and run away from home.

2) my college final group project do until not too smooth, got few problem. My team member really let me vomit blood. Told them this, they say that. No one is listing ! Am i an invisible person? Say the person in charge calling us wait a minute then only is our turn but like this also let those BIG STUPID scold with rude words. Walao eh, why my team got so rude people de? Now is not i dun wan to arrange the place but is the people in charge say later only is our turn.

3) still is my team problem. From the start i think i keep get scolded by that two stupid guy with rude words, maybe im from whole girl's school so i not too comfort with all this kind of languages.
Or maybe they just normal talking or just joking with me but please don't do this to me again. All people also got own way to communicate.


Because of morning lost my roro then afternoon very late to have my lunch, then the whole day keep on let my final project team member 气死 (almost vomit blood + headache) . So today really UNHAPPY.

something crazy that me and my friends do...

13/3/2010

was a special and crazy day to me,
after lunch,we sitting down there chatting like normal days we do,
suddenly a huge wind blowing outside the house,
we saw a plastic bag flying around the sky,
so,
my friends suddenly though a great and stupid idea to have fun,
we will make a paper aeroplane and throw down from our house,
because our house at 13 floor and plus the huge wind blowing sure will make our aeroplan to fly high.
so we take a piece of paper then wrote our wishes into it,
each of us wrote 3 wishes just like our birthday wishes got 3 wishes,
then we make the paper into an aeroplane,
each of our paper aeroplane also not same at all,
some make like a fish, some make like a jet some dunno make out what kind of aeroplane,
then we run here and there to find a suitable place to release our wishes aeroplane,
finally we fly out our "aeroplane",
sawing the plane fly here and there,
we also so embrace to see cos later the paper plane land on others people house then sure saw our wishes and sure scold "who simply throw rubbish"
haha...
so this is something crazy that we do on that day. ^.^funny, crazy but fun!

我要严重的考虑我的选择

我要严重的考虑我的选择，是否对还是错的。
我想我还是不够了解他呢，
他喜欢什么，我不懂，
他厉害什么，我也不懂，
他讨厌什么，我跟不懂！

我和他聊天，他好像嫌我烦啊~
把msn 都关了。 （T.T）伤心啊~
不懂他在想什么的，忽冷忽热，猜死我啦~
我不是神女啊，不懂你心想什么。你可以对我说你的感受吗？
我不想你对我忽冷忽热，你忙你可以告诉我啊。
我会自动的死开给你看。（T.T）

我左想右想，我是不是真的要改变我的想法？对你的看法以及思想？
我该怎么办呢？

好想你对我说一声“早”

我还是没办法忘记你，
虽然时间已过了很久，
也许时间把你记忆的我删除掉，
不过我还是记得你。

看你被人赞赏，我羡慕，因为我没有机会像他们一样赞赏你。
听你赞叹别人，我妒忌，因为那个人是其他女生而不是我。

我好希望能够有一次自动的先对我说声“早”，
因为这代表你还记得我。
只要你肯对我说这个字，
代表我们还是朋友，
我不介意我们的关系是朋友，
不是恋人。
不过我还是会很开心的。

动心还是喜欢？

懂得什么是动心？什么是喜欢？
以前我不懂，不过经过我的好干姐的一番解释，我大概了解了。

动心：
- 他很帅气，让人无法不看他多几眼
- 想他注意你多一点
- 与你聊天
- 说来说去还是样子好看

喜欢：
- 样子可以普通
- 内在好
- 想和他在一起的时间多一点
- 了解他多一点
- 也希望他了解你多一点
- 希望他对你好
- 也希望他心目中有你

那...我是对“他”动心还是喜欢上“他”呢？
告诉“他”我的感觉还是默默的忘记？
一切一切都是我没勇气去做！

你很烦啊！

你可知道你很很很烦吗...？
我不想直接告诉你：你很烦，你不要再来烦我！
因为又怕伤害你的心。不告诉你，你又烦我。让我为难！
所以我不要自动去找你聊天，以为可以不要这么烦，可是你偏偏自动找我聊天,我不要啊！
我好想对你说：你别以为你和我的关系很“特别”，其实我们只是普通到普通不得了的朋友而已！你别再来烦我了，我看到你觉得很害怕！
我真的顶不顺啦........
救命啊~救命啊~

我的小秘密(看了别说shhh....)

最近我发觉我的胸膛很痛，一天比一天痛。
深呼吸都很辛苦，动作大一点也痛，笑跟不用说，还是痛！
我根过一个好朋友谈过，她开导我一些，让我不用这么辛苦，不过我真的要和父母讨论？
我还是担心这个那个的，如何和他们讨论呢？
我很担心我有心脏病，因为我的外公的那一边的亲人全部因为心脏病而去世的，这叫我如何不怕呢？
以前，有位医生告诉我，我有可能有“大劲包”，现在为我增加心脏有问题，怎能不怕？
我是一个怕死的人，当让怕病痛！
我希望我能身体健康吧！
我知道有心的朋友会来visit my blog, thanks for visiting...^.^

my birthday

my birthday,30th of january
6.30am
morning wake up at 6.30am,then wash up prepare go out.
7.30am
I went to eat dim sam with a group f friend.
9am
we all went to pollogrond, one of my friend(winnie ooi)bring us wrong way then make us "turn lai turn qu".At last we reach the polloground.
10.30am
we reach the lost world, walao so many people,all also malay.
we start our fun time at there until almost 6pm.
7pm
we all go to keimi ng house,
her parents belanja us to makan dinner
11pm
we go eat supper,
so unlucky traffic jam along the way we go to "tong sui gai"
but on the other hand we saw "kavadi"
so beautiful and many people too,
and almost jam for 1 hour only reach there,
keimi's brother belanja us makan supper(什果雪)
IN CONCLUSION:
I quite happy on that day(1st time my birthday so happy)
and something that i wish for, but if can i wish i dun want people giving me surprise or cheating me because it wont make me happy but just make me angry(or maybe no feeling)
people who join me for this one day trip and someone who i wan to thanks:
-snow chan xue yin
-winnie ooi huey ying
-keimi ng yi ting
-ng khang jieh
-lobak
-andre har
THANK YOU !!! ^.^

my feeling toward my birthday

how to start the line?
my heart and feeling so damn messy.
say what 1st? and where to start?
This year also another lonely birthday for myself,
last year also the same passed by myself.
Although this year got a small celebration with friends but the amount of number not as i though.
DISAPPOINTED...
But i still happy that my friends celebrate with me.
Got people ask me waiting for what on your birthday?
think here and think there? what im waiting?
wishes?present? i think not these...
but got a friend told me that im waiting for CELEBRATION...
celebration with friends(this is the 1st thing that i waiting for) and wishes and present!
After my friend's explanation... i only realised that im actually waiting for "friends" , friends that can help me celebrate, play and have fun with me...
This lonely night i got some wishes from my friends
-1st: andre
-2nd: soon ful
-3rd: snow chan
-4th: steven
thank to them...
but the person that i waiting to wish me, he didn't appear...
Disappointed again...
What is i really wish for my birthday?
nothing...
i just know that day my got a 闷闷的心...
actually i hate to pass my birthday with lonelyness,
so sometimes i quite hate birthday!!! T.T(sad)

爱你多过你爱他的人...

世界上是不是这么不公平？
你喜欢他，他却不喜欢你，
你不喜欢他，偏偏暗恋你，
暗恋一个人是件多么辛苦的事,
你喜欢他，他不懂，
你关心他，他也不懂，
你想念他，他还是不懂，
你想要和他聊天，他更不懂！
别人说：女人心像海底针，我却觉得男人心像宇宙针叻,
女生要什么就会说和表现出来;男生要什么，别人都看不出猜不到，
喜欢你？暗恋你？还是讨厌你？
我都不知道...
你可不可以不要对我冷淡，只注意他人，而不是我...
心痛，心碎，失望你懂吗？
所以，我答应自己，不再喜欢还是暗恋，
只喜欢暗恋我的人，
以免伤心失望...
所以才说：“喜欢爱你多过爱他的人”